I thought I could distract myself from the fact that I’m alone

I thought I could somehow forget that he’s not here

I thought I could be so emotionally distant that I’d only care for temporal things, cause that’s how happiness is, fleeting

And love? Nothing but convenience, comfortability and practicality

I want to belive someone can disprove me

I want to believe that someone is you

People fall in love everyday. But for people such as ourselves to fall in love with each other? It’s stellar.

Days drag on when we are not together. I am missing you so much. It hurts. </3

I said I love you, I wasn’t lying. I said I didn’t want to lose you, that was true. I said you make me giddy, you really did. My heart melts like ice cream on a hot summer day every time you stare at me. I still feel the butterflies I got in my stomach when we first kissed. It’s funny how we never got to talk for long hours and yet we know a lot about each other. It’s funny how you have the reputation of a heartbreaker and yet it was me who broke your heart first. I am a mess. I am a piece of work. But, you see beyond that. You could be my lifesaver. I do not deserve your love, yet, you continue to give it to me. So what if our love is terrible news, it will always be taken away from us. So what if we won’t get to experience a lot of things together as lovers. I’d like you to know, that is fine with me. For I am happy. I will love you as long as I am permitted to.

I played hide and seek with fear of getting caught

as I peek through your thoughts

I tried to hide as best as I could

but always you found me

And each time I told myself I’d play better

Afraid to lose this game,

I move swiftly passed shadows

But you saw everything

You showed me that hiding was a waste of time

A subterfuge that made me weak

A day never passed without you by my side

And now I’m poisoned by the flame

I could feel its warmth inside of me

A breath I can taste before it even escapes my lungs

I long for you in your absence

A yearning that pounds from within

And wander in this realm set forth by your charm

Insensitive to this game

you never noticed

For all this was child’s play to you

Yet and still, I sought for the best moment

to surrender myself in your arms

I swam across thousands of thoughts and emotions

Until I summoned courage

that pulled me back to reality

And in that moment I embraced the truth

I can only be with you

In my dreams

As I sleep

With just a bat of an eyelash

I was crushed

Game over

<3